Visiting With the Yule Spirits

'Twas that night before Yule, when all 'cross the heath,
Not a being was stirring; Pagan, Faerie, nor Beast,
Wassail was left out and the altar adorned,
To rejoice that the Sun King would soon be reborn.
The children lay sleeping by the warmth of the hearth,
Their dreams filled with visions of beloved Mother Earth,
M'lady and I beneath blankets piled deep, had just settled
down to our Solstice sleep.
Then a noise in the night that would leave us no peace,
Awakened us both to the honking of geese.
Eager to see such a boisterous flock,
When we raced to the window, our mouths dropped in shock!
On the West Wind flew a gaggle of geese, white and gray,
With Frau Holda behind them in Her gift-laiden dray.
The figure on Her broomstick to the North sky made it clear,
La Befana was approaching to bestow Yuletide cheer.
From the South came a comet more bright than the Moon,
And we knew Lucia would be with us soon.
As these Spirits sailed Earthward o'er hilltops and trees,
Frau Holda serenaded Her feathery steeds:
"Fly Isolde! Fly Tristan! Fly Odin and Freya! Fly Morgaine!
Fly Merlin! Fly Uranus and Gaea!
May the God and Goddess inside you soar,
From the clouds in the heavens to your cottage door."
As soft and silent as snowflakes they fell;
Their arrival announced by a faint chiming bell.
They landed like angels, their bodies aglow,
Their feet left no marks in the new fallen snow,
Before we could ponder what next lay in store,
There came a slow creeking from our threshold door.
We crept from our bedroom and were spellbound to see...
There in our parlor stood the Yule Trinity!
Lucia the Maiden, with Her head wreathed in flame,
Shown with the radiance for which she She was named,
The Lightbringers eyes held the joy of a child,
And she spoke with a voice that was gentle, yet wild:
"May the warmth of this household ne'er fade away."
Then she lit our Yule log which still burns to this day.
Frau Holda in Her down cloak stood regal and tall,
The Matron of Solstice, the Mother of all,
Under Her gaze we felt safe and secure.
Her voice was commanding, yet almost demure:
"May the love in this family enrich young and old."
And from the folds of Her cloak showered coins of pure gold,
LaBefana wore a kerchief on Her silvery hair;
The veil of the Crone who has secrets to share,
In Her eyes gleamed a wisdom only gained by spent youth.
Her voice was whisper, but Her words rung the truth:
"May health, glad tidings, and peace fill these rooms."
And she banished misfortune with a sweep of Her broom,
They then left a gift by each sleeping childs head,
Took a drink of our wassail, and away they all sped.
While we watched them fly off through the night sky we laughed,
At the wonderous magick we had found in the Craft.
As they departed, the Spirits decreed...

"Merry Yule To You All, And May All Blessed Be!"

A Solstice Prayer

Time of deepest darkness
The God is born anew
Seedling in the frozen earth
Awaiting springtime dew.

The ground, an icy wasteland,
Though neighbors hearts are warm
We share our goods with everyone
So no one comes to harm.

Snow lies on her shoulders
Frosted mantle for her hair
Winter's Queen is giving birth
The Goddess, always there

The sun is growing brighter.
It happens every year
Promising return of light
For sod and oak and deer

Stag King, his mighty antlers
Rising from a drift
Leaps for the hunter's arrow
Just as strong and swift

He knows his time has ended
He is heading to the plain
Where joy caresses memory
Like softly summer rain

New fawn takes his first step,
The buck he will become.
After the time of knowing
A new year has begun.

I Know You

When I first met you 
I felt like I had known you forever, 
telling you my secrets 
and what I didn't want ever. 
you listened to me 
I bet you thought I'd never end, 
who would have thought 
we would become more than just friends. 
Over a period of time, 
I got to know the real you. 
A boy so caring and gentle, 
with a heart so true. 
You've survived your life 
with hurt and loneliness by your side. 
I told you I'd never leave 
because of the feelings I have inside. 
I know you 
like no one I have ever known, 
and sometimes I wonder 
what I'd do if you were gone? 
So I have decided 
time answers all. 
If it is meant to be 
time will remove the wall. 
I love the way we are together, 
you can always make me smile. 
Will it ever really be forever? 
I guess I will have to wait awhile. 
Time will reveal, what lies ahead 
but always remember 
what I have said. 
Meeting you has changed my life 
and I really love you so, 
the feelings I feel for you 
I am never letting go. 
Remember me always 
and I will too. 
I always think of 
me and you.

uncovered photographs

It's not enough to live your past, through photographs
Uncovered
One falling breath you've held in time, encased in light
Now fading

I can't feel you in these scenes
An absence leaves this incomplete

Kept you alive, but it's unclear, what holds you here
Unaging
Echoes of life embrace these walls, 'til they dissolve
Cascading

I've been searching for you in these frames
By face or name, your eyes...

Where's the fight you are feeling?
When life takes away each fleeting part of what we are inside

Cat in the WAll

There's a cat in the wall And I listen to him squall In the morning when I'm stretching Hear him choking, hear him retching It's a shame about the noise Because it scares away the boys In the evening when we coo-ing And that pussy starts purring And the neighbours of my mom Taking wages on the phone Saying where'd he ever get the nerve When will he get what he deserves Come let's pray the lightning bolts allow And the neighbours of my mom Taking wages on the phone Must've been a hefty fall Must've built the walls around him And it's a wonder no one's found him But I'll never shoo him out Cause he moves around the house In my arteries he gets Now he's bumping through my brain In my veins, in my mouth Till I scream and cough out loud But he's just a little ghost He's just a shade of what he was Because, because, because, because, because Of the rotten things he does And the neighbours of my mom Still don't know that cat is gone

i wrote this awhile ago when i had a really noisy cat and jsut found it....its meant to be humorus sorry if it offends anyone.

when your older

Red-eyes fly away from here every night
My intentions aren’t unfair or unkind
How else could I purge my heart of this pillowed dream?

Arctic wind will be washed from my hair
Trading the forest for the city
Things will be different for you
Things will be different for you

When you’re older, you’ll look back
As you grow you’ll understand
Why I left

All I talk about is you since that day
Remember when I cry into my soup
And you would say that it’s okay

So many things used to break my heart
I’d fall so easily
But you’re younger and smarter and harder than me

Things will be different for you
Things will be different for you

When you’re older, you’ll look back
As you grow you’ll understand
Why I left

I’m not comfortable in my own skin
Haven’t found my finest hour
I can’t dance, let alone sing
Before a crowd
Or write effortlessly what I can’t come out and say
When I do, I’ll be just like you

Trading the forest for the city
Finding my way down the mountain
Finding my way to the sea

When you’re older, you’ll look back
As you grow you’ll understand
You’ll understand

Fireflys

I'm reaching out.
Lonely flower in the breeze.
A refugee on their knees.
For the lost page
Of our book.
A happy ending
Someone took.

Reaching out.
For a shell
To hear the sea.
A bell
That tolls for me.
I'm a single fallen leaf
In a churchyard of empty grief.

Searching
Silhouettes of the blind.
Dancing
Pirouettes of a crippled mind.

I'm reaching out.
For the moon.
And his stars, 
That he has strewn.
Like precious dice
To entice
Us gamblers of love.
Who look above
For our dreams to appear.
Fading in the atmosphere.
Parading a raging sky.

Yet I
Reach out.
For an angel
Of time gone by.
Who sang my soul a lullaby.
Igniting
My heart with his spark.
Like a Firefly, 
In the dark. 

It was easier before
when i felt like this
you were there to hold my hand,
and take my tears away.

Now my tears are falling
like the summer rains
I reach out with grasping hands
and theres nothing there but air.

Where are you? Where did you go?
Why did you leave me,
you left me all alone.

They tell me that your with me
But i dont see you here
They tell me your all around me
"just LIsten"
But i cant hear your voice.

I still reach out to you
and yet your never there.

Please oh please come back to me
I need your strenght and love.


this was written with a broken heart...and sometimes its feels that it will never be mended....I miss you Marcus, you left us so suddenly, and i never got the chance to say goodbye.